Memories; they are things you loved, things you keep close in your heart because you don't ever want to forget them; Or maybe it isn't that you don't want to forget them, its that you don't want them to forget you. All of us are scared of the future, scared of growing up and failing at our lives. Scared of being forgotten. And that's why we look back, we remember moments when we were happy, when we felt whole. And to a point, it makes us feel like if things were okay then, they can be okay now, or be okay someday. But why should something that already happened make you so miserable today? We, as people hold onto the past, and why shouldnt we? The past lets us know that at one point in our lives, we were happy, and i think that eventually as the past gets farther and farther away, the more we try to hold onto it, the more we try and make the past the present. Your memory is a weird thing, it lets you go back in time almost, whenever you close your eyes, your mind easily lets you replay every word, every sound, every second. And sure, that's a good thing to some, but to others, it brings back times that quite frankly, you would love to have completely washed from your existence. And that's where flashbacks come into play, and nightmares and anxiety. Because as much as you try to forget your past; there it is, laughing it up that you cant get it to go away. But i think that as much as sometimes you want to just forget a person, or a moment in time, its good that its still there somewhere, because as much as you wish you hadn't done this or done that, when it all comes down to it, if you didn't have your past, what would you have to learn from to be where you are today? "Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." And after all, the rest is still Unwritten.
. - I go by Alli
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