a·lone
(adj) Being without anyone or anything else; only.
Synonyms: alone, lonely, lonesome, solitary
These adjectives describe lack of companionship. Alone emphasizes being apart from others and on occasion, implies unhappiness.
(AC is Alaina Corsini, AD is Alli D'amico)
AC: I think there are a lot of pains in this world. You get hurt all the time, physically and emotionally. Most pain comes from other people. A boy breaks your heart, or a friend breaks your trust. But then there comes a point when you realize, that after a while, it’s not anyone else hurting you. It’s yourself.
AD: Loneliness is that point in your life when you realize that no matter what you do, or how hard you cry, you’re in this by yourself. That knight in shining armor is no longer there to sweep you off your feet and save you from yourself. Being alone, isn't lacking friends, or people to lean on, its that moment when you realize that no amount of shoulders to cry on can help you. It that second when you think to yourself. nobody understands me.
AC: At some point in our lives, someone leaves us. Someone leaves us who we never thought would leave. There’s that one person that you put all your trust in leaves. It’s like they’re your everything, so when your gone you have nothing. Your lonely. Your alone. The feeling stays there too, it doesn’t just go away. Every day theres a little feeling there. Or an object, or something that reminds you that the person is gone. That your by yourself, your alone.
AD: People come in and out of our lives every single day. But occasionally, someone walks into your life.. and they stay there. Your life not only revolves around you now, suddenly your life is meshing with someone else's, becoming one. Love does that. But you know what else love does? Love destroys you. It destroys who you used to be. And it crushes your dreams. You become so fixated on this one person, this “love of your life” that you convince yourself that hey, maybe he's the one. And when the moment comes when you have to come to the realization that “the one” is gone, your body gives up, it decides that without this other person it is impossible that you should ever even bother looking for someone else. And that for the rest of you life, you are going to be what you are right now; alone.
AC: I think i have trust issues, honestly. I’m pretty sure every person that I put trust in has left me. I have every reason to believe that I’m alone. And I have every right to feel it too. I get too dependent on people. I don’t depend on myself. So when they leave, theres nothing holding me together anymore. Without the person who kept you all together, you fall apart. It feels like its just you, no one wants you, and no one cares. That if you were to just disappear, no one would notice. Your alone.
AD: I can convince myself all i want that i have so many friends and so many people that are there for me, but the one thing i cant convince myself is that i will ever be as close to as happy as i was with him with someone else. And thats whats cuts the deepest. The fact that even if i have someone else, i will still have that empty space where he used to fit perfectly.
AC: I let someone in, and that person was there for a while. And in a second, gone. It was like the past was gone, erased like it didn’t even happen. That person brought me so much happiness, so without it, what? Sadness? Or just nothing. No feeling coming in. Loneliness. Someone who was there for so long, how could they just get up and leave? How could they leave and never come back. How could someone who cared about me so much, just not care at all. I felt so alone, for so long.
We can both promise you one thing though. You will prevail. Prevail over the feeling of loneliness. Someday that feeling will go away. And someday, that feeling of loneliness will be filled with the feeling of love again. And it takes awhile. We both know how much it sucks, and how long it takes. But that feeling does go away. When you start to believe yourself, only you can take the loneliness away. And it will happen someday. You just have to make your belief create the fact.
-Alaina Corsini and Alli D’amico write.
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