Day Four; Your Definition of Love

I believe that love is fearless. I believe that love means trust, that love means putting every inch of your heart into another persons hands knowing that at any moment they could smash it into a million pieces. I believe that love is trusting someone to keep you safe, and keep you happy, and for you to be willing to protect them in return. Love is taking a chance on someone, on something, on some small glimmer of hope that this might be everything you hoped it would be. Love is hope, love is guessing, love is believing that everything will turn out the way its supposed to be. I believe that love is doodling his name on your paper over and over again all throughout class, thinking about, dreaming about, hoping to see them. I believe in butterflies in your tummy, and the nauseous feeling you get before jumping into his arms. I believe love is kisses on the nose, and then the forehead. I believe that love is a smile that can light the whole room. I believe that love is breathlessness. Love is waiting for the person you know most likely wont ever come back to where you know he belongs. I believe in build a bears with two hearts inside. I believe in young love. I believe that love is passion, love is caring so intensely, so deeply, about someone else that it is unbearable to think about life without them. I believe in sending letters, lots of letters, in illegible handwriting. I believe love is waiting. I believe love is feeling like a piece is missing when you're without them. I believe in love songs. Love is missing someone. I believe that love is letting go, of every word, every promise, every kiss. Love is caring enough to let the other person be happy, even if it means they are happy without you. I believe that love is letting them walk away, even though you know that you wont ever get to hold them again. I believe that love is tears. Love is heartbreak. I believe in always and forever, even though ive learned love isn't. I believe that love is fearless.
 

day 3; your best friends

When you really think about it, you come into this world alone, and you leave it alone, But the people that you choose to spend all the time in between with, those are your best friends. These few people know you, inside and out, they can tell if your upset by the look on your face and can make you smile with a single word. These are the people that you know that if they weren't there, you wouldn't be the same. You wouldn't have smiled as much, laughed as hard, and lived as fully as you did with them right there next to you to share every minute. Each one of you have impacted my life in a way that words cannot even begin to describe, you have each made me laugh, smile, and have been there for me through the times when getting out of bed seemed as if it wasn't an option, i cant even begin to express how lucky i am to have these few people, these people that, no matter what, have showed me that i have something to smile about, something to be proud of, and that i have the ability to be whoever i want to be. I love you all so much. Thank you for everything.

retrying what i attempted and failed at..

• day 03- your best friends
• day 04- your definition of love.
• day 05-a moment
• day 06- your beliefs
• day 07- .your siblings.
• day 08 – something you regret.
• day 09 – something that upsets you.
• day 10 – something that makes you cry

ta ta ta to the top of the world

Everything looks beautiful,

From the top of the world.

 

"I never understood why when you died, you didn't just vanish, everything could just keep going on the way it was only you just wouldn't be there. I always thought I'd like my own tombstone to be blank. No epitaph, and no name. Well, actually, I'd like it to say 'figment."
- Andy Warhol 

 "No one's ever burned you, nothings ever left you scarred, and even though you want to, just try to never grow up."

"You know that place between sleeping and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always think of you."
— Peter Pan

I wish you knew.

I wish you knew how much better i was doing, how each day i think about you less and less, and how that year we had together is starting to become more and more distant to me. I wish you knew that im scarred by you. That it is so hard for me to find someone else because i'm constantly comparing them to you;your smile your humor your laugh. I wish you knew that i can never be the person i was 2 years ago, i can never genuinely feel whole anymore because of you. And how much it hurts me that half the planet thinks im an idiot. because of you. I also wish you knew that im stronger from you, every punch you've thrown my way, every word, every week of silence. I have learned to accept nothing but the best for me because of you, and to never underestimate myself. I have learned from you that i will never be the same again, but have learned to accept that nobody ever will be. I wish you knew that you are always going to be my first love, and even though that may be insignificant now, its always going to be a fact. I wish you knew how much pain you put me through. I wish you knew how much i want to be your friend, and also that i don't know why. But most importantly, I wish you knew that i don't want to be with you, ever again. And yet..i still miss everything about you.