running from myself

fixated on the past, my soul does stay
i wait for an answer to all my questions
one that will never come to me
hope is what i rely on,
through the long days and sleepless nights
to revive me of my emptiness
and to bring my hapiness back to me
waiting for a miracle,
i sit in silence
for you my love,
it is easy to get by
knowing you are happy is gift to me
i should do the same for myself,
but have found i have forgotten how.
words left unspoken
will never be replaced
the loving arms that once held me safe,
they lay limp at your sides
i hold myself high,
above the despair that holds my heart
i know one day,
this pain will be gone

-Alli