And just like that, we must carry on.
- Victoria Bergevine
So, it's been a couple months since I've actually written here. I guess its just because i didn't really know what to write about. But i guess tonight; i do.
I've come to realize that ive been trapped. Since January, i have waited and waited till the time came that i could finally walk away. hands down. just say goodbye and head for the door, no strings attached. And for the weeks i stayed awake and thought about how i should just do it already, i also came to realize, its not that simple.
Life; its short. Most of us walk around this place taking advantage of the fact that well.. we're only here for so long. And personally, ive been doing that for a little bit too long. I never really came to terms with the fact that he wasn't coming back. i never really thought about what would happen if we ever got back together. And the other night, i actually did. and i realized. it would never be the same again. given the fact that, sure we were in love. and 6 months ago i wouldve given up everything i had for him. but you know what i also realized? the past is the past. I never really let go of it, and that was my problem. i was living my life envious of who i was back then, and now.. sadly, 5 months later, im finally realizing it. So the whole moving on step.. yeah im not going to sugarcoat it, its hard. But we all need to just get over that barricade called the past and walk on. Walk away from what you thought someone was, and the promises they broke. walk past the memories and the old cards and clothes, just let yourself be free of the Because in all honesty, it isnt ever going to be what it was, and for those of us who wish it was, we need to snap back into reality. Realize that things will eventually be o.k and those people are in the past for a reason; to make you stronger! and to make you who you are right.now. and because of those people, who walk into your life and change you. be thankful for them. Because in reality, when you look at the big picture, they are really only a tiny piece of the puzzle. And sooner or later, everything will fit together perfectly.
I've come to realize that ive been trapped. Since January, i have waited and waited till the time came that i could finally walk away. hands down. just say goodbye and head for the door, no strings attached. And for the weeks i stayed awake and thought about how i should just do it already, i also came to realize, its not that simple.
Life; its short. Most of us walk around this place taking advantage of the fact that well.. we're only here for so long. And personally, ive been doing that for a little bit too long. I never really came to terms with the fact that he wasn't coming back. i never really thought about what would happen if we ever got back together. And the other night, i actually did. and i realized. it would never be the same again. given the fact that, sure we were in love. and 6 months ago i wouldve given up everything i had for him. but you know what i also realized? the past is the past. I never really let go of it, and that was my problem. i was living my life envious of who i was back then, and now.. sadly, 5 months later, im finally realizing it. So the whole moving on step.. yeah im not going to sugarcoat it, its hard. But we all need to just get over that barricade called the past and walk on. Walk away from what you thought someone was, and the promises they broke. walk past the memories and the old cards and clothes, just let yourself be free of the Because in all honesty, it isnt ever going to be what it was, and for those of us who wish it was, we need to snap back into reality. Realize that things will eventually be o.k and those people are in the past for a reason; to make you stronger! and to make you who you are right.now. and because of those people, who walk into your life and change you. be thankful for them. Because in reality, when you look at the big picture, they are really only a tiny piece of the puzzle. And sooner or later, everything will fit together perfectly.
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